Well today was Valentines day. Sometimes that is a hard day for people, the people who are alone. I myself am not dating anyone, and that is sometimes hard, we desire to be with someone, and I feel like thats natural at my age. All my life I have dreamed of the man I would marry and how it would be a cinderella story (Or Ariel, she’s my fave), but I have to face the reality that sometimes relationships are not always unicorns and rainbows. I have been in relationships in the past and there was something always missing. It was something that I never really new was not there but I could feel it, God. God was never the foundation of any of my relationships, and that is hard to do at such a young age. We are usually so infatuated with the other that we lose sight of what God intended relationships to be and that is to further the kingdom. I have recently read Proverbs 31, it is about being a Godly woman and a Godly wife. I can honestly say that before my this transformation to my new life I was none of these things, but with my new faith I long to be the wife and woman God wants me to be. I look at my mom and dads marriage and I hold it up on a pedestal. They love each other so much and their love for one another is based off their love for Christ. Yes they fight and get on each others nerves but at the end of the day they know that their love is unconditional just as Christ’s love for us. I pray that one day my marriage can be as wonderful as my parents, but for now I must trust in God to bring me that unconditional love. I know that God has the perfect man for me, one that will love me like no other man has and I am so excited! But right now I feel that God wants me to rely on him and he will fulfill the desires of my heart. He knows that I want to be married and have a family but he also wants to spiritually prepare me for it. Being here in Haiti and learning to trust in God is teaching me a lot about relationships to come. I have given my will up and taken the will of God onto my life. I now want what God wants and that is to be obedient and as Proverbs 31 verse 17-20 “She girds herself with strength and makes her arms strong. She senses that her gain is good; Her lamp does not go out at night. She stretches out her hand to the distaff, And her hands grasp the spindle. She extends out her hands to the poor”. While I am in Haiti I want my light to shine for Jesus and what he has done for me and if I continue to be a servant I believe that the verses in Proverbs 28-31 will be a testimony to the faith that I have put in our Savior.
28 Her children rise up and bless her;
Her husband also, and he praises her, saying:
29 “Many daughters have done nobly,
But you excel them all.”
30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain,
But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.
31 Give her the product of her hands,
And let her works praise her in the gates.
I am so blessed to be where I am today and to be serving the Lord! Our God is so amazing! This blog is dedicated to my wonderful Parents, Thank you so much for believing in me and loving me unconditionally. You inspire me to be a woman of God and to have a marriage as fruitful for the Lord as yours. And to my Valentine Jesus, For giving me the ultimate present his life so I may have a new one, Happy Valentines Day.