Hey There!

I feel as though I have left this blog abandoned, and I thinks its time for an update! My life is crazy beautiful and I see the Lord working in it everyday. If y’all didn’t know I got ENGAGED over the summer, to the most wonderful man in the world (other than my dad :)). The Lord has shown me what earthly love is through him and I am overwhelming grateful for that. We like all couples go through struggles but the light at the end of the tunnel is glorifying the kingdom of God. I really cant tell you all enough how in love I am and how wonderful my Jon is. He is such a servant and loves me the way I though I never deserved. I hope all of you feel this love some day because is it straight form the father and is the representation of sacrificial love. I cannot wait to get married on May 17th and I hope that through everything our marriage represents and shows the light of Jesus.

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New Mercies

It’s crazy to sit back and look at my life, and see how much God has blessed me. I’m flying home to see my wonderful family minus one, only to return back in one week to my amazing second home in West Palm Beach. 2 years ago it was hard to imagine what life would be like living a life of sobriety and living a life for God, and now is hard to think about living any other kind of life than sobriety and serving God. Through this journey The Lord has blessed me with life long friends and hopefully a life long mate :), He has also restored my family and my life with His grace. And even when I do not trust in Him all the way He continues to provide for me and love me, which blows my mind!

The other night at Christ Fellowship, the church I am working for, we had a night of worship; where the theme was hymns. As I heard the people singing the hymns and worshiping I felt a sense of peace come over me, I wasn’t sure why but I knew that God was speaking to me. I then walked up stairs to see my boyfriend standing in a crowd of people worshiping Jesus will all of his heart, and at that moment that was Gods way of saying he loved me. Later that night I sat with him and worshiped as the song How Marvelous was played and realized that my marvelous God has blessed with me an amazing man. Throughout that week I had been stressed and anxious about different things in my relationship and really needed a sense of peace with it all. And as He always does Jesus showed up with just what I needed in His perfect timing. You know God works differently everyday in my life. Some days he shows up with little mercies and other days he shows up with a big boom! I feel like he might be saying those days in a big shouting voice I LOVE YOU MY DAUGHTER LOOK AT ALL MY BLESSINGS I HAVE GIVEN YOU! And you know what He’s right. I am undeservingly blessed. I sin, I am unrighteous, but God continues to never stop loving me. That’s why He is so marvelous! Even though I fall and stumble He is always there no matter what. He loves me unconditionally and strives to be in a relationship with me no matter what it takes to get my attention. When our relationships began to fill us with doubt and discontent it is not the earthly relationships that usually need fixing. It’s our heavenly relationship with our eternally Father. People will always let you down but your God never will! And when satan try’s to make your relationships rocky its then when you cry out to Jesus for them to become steady again. He is the only one who can satisfy and fill you up. But He does give you people on this earth to show His love and I know he has placed Jonathan in my life for that reason. I am so blessed and in awe at how much God loves me and how he continues to pour out is grace on me. He has placed very special people and relationships in my life and I am so excited to where He takes them! I serve such an amazing savior who never ceases to amaze me 🙂

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My wonderful Family

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My best friend 🙂

One Body One Heart

I have been preparing for this day for a long time now. I knew this day would come and I knew it would be one of the hardest days of my life. On the drive there I thought I would feel so weak but I was suddenly strengthened by everyone who was praying for me and it was amazing because I could physically feel the power of prayers.  Walking up to Ken Kens mothers house was a bittersweet feeling. I couldn’t wait to see her but I knew that something was missing. The last time I saw her, her baby boy was wrapped up in her arms. She had no idea that I was coming so I was praying for strength for both of us. When I walked in and she saw me her eyes lit up and then she soon fell to the floor crying. I sat down with her and held her as we both cried and told her that Ken Ken is now rejoicing in heaven that we are both together again! It was so hard to be strong but because of y’alls prayers I was able to show joy to her when we talked about her precious son. I then handed her the locket I had made and she smiled at me with full tears in her eyes and hugged me as best as she could. She then told me that she had no idea that I was coming to Haiti because no one had told her but in her heart she could feel that I was there and that she could feel my spirit was in Haiti close to her. When she said that it sent chills down my spine and tears down my face. I later asked someone to help me understand what she meant and the explained it to me like this, you know that your elbow is attached to your arm bone, you and her have been made together as one through the love of her son and Jesus Christ. It’s amazing to me how through one child and his mother healing could come for my heart and my brokenness redeemed through Jesus. It was so hard to say goodbye but in both of our hearts it was not a goodbye it was a see you later. I know that Ken Ken was looking down on us from heavenly realms laughing and dancing with Jesus and is healed beyond my own comprehension. I am so thankful for his life and what it did for me and I know that God has huge plans for the life and story of Ken Ken and his mother and I am blessed to be a part of it. Thank you everyone for your prayers and love for me I love you all very much.

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Bring On The Jesus!

WE are still doing well and safe here in Haiti, thank you everyone who has been praying for us on our journey! Today was an amazing day. We woke up at 6:30 for breakfast and soon after had our first devotion with another team from Cullman Alabama. After our devotion we headed to the tent camp where I spent most of my time during my last stay in Haiti. It was so wonderful to see the people, women and children I had cared so much for and for them all to remember and greet me with such love and joy!  I was so anxious to see my two little sisters Melissa and Soluce, and when they finally came around the corner they rushed towards me with tears in their eyes and jumped into my arms, it was so overwhelming and beautiful I myself could not hold back the tears. The love I have for them is what keeps my heart beating for this nation. It was very cool for the girls on the team to see the people I have been talking about for so long and interact with them almost as if they knew them already. Soon after arriving we spilt off in groups and went on a prayer walk around the tent camp.  We found people in need of prayer and some in need of Jesus! It was awesome to see the girls praying and loving on the people as Christ would. Many of the girls had instant connections with the children in the tent camp and soon had many followers that were jumping all over them and some had no time in-between putting a child down and one picking one up again. At the end of our time there we held a little conference to talk to the people about how they are adopted into a family and that they have a Heavenly Father who will always love them and claim them even when no one else does, which is a very prevalent thing in Haiti with such a high rate of broken homes. It was very neat to see the girls as there spirits began to be awakened to this third world culture, and I can not wait to see what else God had in store for us!!! I am so overwhelmed with the joy of The Lord and I could not be happier to be back with the people that helped soften my heart! I love this nation and all the people in it and I am excited to continue this amazing journey with these amazing women.

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The Girls at the top of the mountain Yesterday after church

 

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The two sisters that have stolen my heart, Melissa and Soluce

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My sweet girl Soluce and I

Ezekiel 11:19 We Have Arrived!

We have arrived in Haiti Safely and we are incredibly blessed by all of the traveling mercies that were given to us today! When we landed, I was having to hold back the tears so that they didn’t all come out at once! I can’t even believe that I am back in Haiti again leading such an amazing group of girls. All the girls were in awe as we flew over the tent cities and they began to realize that this was the real deal. It was amazing getting to see some of my second family here at Chadasha that I had missed so much! Lets just say the tears would not stop flowing. After we got settled into our room we headed off to the children’s home called Little Hands and Feet where the girls got to meet some of the sweetest children in all of Haiti. There was instant connections with the girls and the kids and it was certainly a precious sight to see. These girls brought the love of Jesus and I could not be anymore proud! Tomorrow we will be heading to a Haitian church where the girls will get to experience a whole new kind of worship and a cross cultural way of loving our Savior. I am so excited to see what this week brings the team and myself and we are beyond grateful for all of  y’alls prayers! Keep praying and I know that the Lord will do great things through us! I am so blessed to be back in a nation that showed me Gods love at its fullest and I can’t not wait to see how He works in the lives around us this week! Our verse this week is all about turing hearts of stone to hearts of flesh for Jesus! Bring it on Lord we are ready to serve you!!!

 I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 11:19

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Myself and the Girls at the Children’s home! What an amazing day!

Lets DO this!

This Saturday I will be venturing back to Haiti for the first time in almost in year. I am beyond excited and ready to be back in the place that the Lord helped heal me through a nation and so many beautiful people. It’s hard to even believe it’s almost been year since I have been there. This time I will lead a team of eight girls who many have never been on a mission trip. Not going to lie I am a bit nervous, but I know that the lord will guide my steps and use me in the way that will glorify Him. These past months have been so impactful to say the least. I have began working at a church called Christ Fellowship as their Transitions Coordinator, which has been such a blessing and I am learning and growing spiritually so much each day. I also have a boy friend now which kind off boggles my mind! The Lord has brought me someone who cherishes each part of me and my testimony and not just parts of it, which is a true blessing straight from God.  And to top it all off I am returning to Haiti where God showed His love for me in a way that I was able to be renewed and restored. I am overwhelmed with the fact that I will be seeing the people who loved on me and poured into me in my broken state. I cannot wait to run to the women of the tent camp and wrap my arms around them once again! I know that God will use me in a different way this time when I return and I am so excited to see how He does it.  Returning to this place of hurt I am ready to use what the Lord has equipped me with to help fight others spiritual battles I once faced with the knowledge of “I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me”! I ask that you keep my team in your prayers and that The Lord keeps us safe as we go on this adventure for Christ and that His angels protect us while we enter into a place of despair and sadness. I know He is taking all of us there for a purpose and I pray that He uses each and every one of us for your design! I have been redeemed for a purpose and I am ready to fight with all that the Lord has given me for those who cannot fight anymore! Thank you everyone for all of your support and prayers for my life and me because with out all of you I would not be living this amazing life that Christ has blessed me with!

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Give me Jesus

As I sat  on the plane heading back to west palm beach I reflected on my time home and realize how amazing it was. As I was saying goodbye to my family I look at each member and think of the ones not there  and wonder why am I so blessed? God has truly blessed me with such an amazing family. I could go on and on about each member but there is one special word I think of when  I think of them and that is grace. My family through thick and thin has been by my side praying and loving me all along my journey. As I try not to cry even writing this it’s hard to explain in words how much grace each member of my family has shown me. When I think about where they get their grace from I know exactly where to look. My family has been through incredibly tough times but through it all they relied on our Savior Jesus. And through those tough times they began to understand grace which they have now bestowed upon me. One of my dear friends put it to me this way the other day as we were having lunch, that my parents where the Shepard’s that never stopped looking for their lost sheep. I don’t think there is a better way to describe them. I then begin to think about the friends that God has put in my life in Greenville and in west palm and I am overwhelmed with the way God shows his love to me through my friends. It’s hard to think back to when I lived my old life and where I found joy and honestly it’s hard to name one. I think of how God has provided for me this year and where He has led me and I would never want to go back. The joy that I have now is incomparable to anything this world could give me! And at the end of the day all I can say is take this world… But give me Jesus. He is my light, He is my Shepard, He is Life.

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My Beautiful Parents on their 29th anniversary

Redeemed

I was so blessed with the opportunity to present my testimony through photography at my school here at PBA. I spent over 50 hours on it and I poured a lot of emotions into this. I hope that it can touch some ones life and realize that redemption is waiting for them at the foot of the cross where Christ will take all of your burdens and chains and throw them away. I would not be here nor would these pictures if it where not for our Almighty God! Praise God for his grace and mercy! I am truly blessed. I hope you enjoy it ❤

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NOT GUILTY

What an interesting week this has been. I have so much running through my mind and so much I want to say about how I see our God moving in my life and in the lives of others around me. Last Monday I had to fly home for a court date from a previous charge in my past before I had been redeemed by Christ. It was a pretty serious charge but from the way my lawyer explained it there would not be very serious consequences because of all the work I had done to change my life. We got to court, we meaning my dad and I at 9am and we did not get out of there until 7pm, needless to say it was a long day. When it was finally time to try my case the judge called me forward and my lawyer began to defend me in a not guilty plea. In the back of my mind I’m thinking wow I was pretty guilty in the situation. At the end of the trial my lawyer had put up a good fight, but the judge found me guilty.I though because of all the steps I had done to radically change myself I figured that he would go easy on me. When he began to sentence me the DA pushed for 30 days jail time, supervised probation and losing my license for 4 year active as of now. My stomach sunk and the feel of anxiety rushed over my body. I was thinking I can’t go to jail! The judge then asked me if I had anything to say for myself and at that moment I shared my testimony and the amazing work God did in my life to heal me from my past. At the end I stated that my God believes in grace mercy but he also believes in justice and that I was ready to suffer the consequences of my actions because today I stand firm upon the rock of my Savior. The judge looked at me with a blank stare and at that moment I felt like I could have passed out on the floor right that minute. The judge then said for the first time in his career as a judge he believed I had radically changed and for the first time since 1979 he would not send someone to jail for what I had done. I was shocked and as tears rolled down my face and then I realized what had just happened…. A miracle. I was given the minimum consequence and was free to go. I was free, God once again had set me free from bondage literally. Before I shared what He had done In my life the officer or the court was ready to take me in hand cuffs and that night I walked out of that court with chains broken. God never ceases to amaze me. Time and time again he shows me grace when I don’t deserve it, and He continues to love me no matter what I have done. I am beyond blessed at the miracles God performs in my life everyday. Nothing else of this world got me to the  place I am today, only the one true risen King and I couldn’t be more grateful. Our God is so good and so powerful, nothing is impossible when God is on your side! And at the end of the day and the case is over my Savior charges me NOT GUILTY!

Is this Place for REAL?

I have arrived at school and I must say I am a little culture shocked. All of these amazing people who love God and serve him and the amazing church I have been attending has blown my mind, like is this place for real? Starting school and a job have been stressful but I know its nothing I can’t handle. On my first day of class I enter the classroom and the first thing my teacher does is pray for us, and again I was like is this place REAL! I am so blessed to be at such an amazing school with professors who truly care and pray for and over you that you succeed as a man or woman in Christ. This place is so real and I love it! I know that I am where I am supposed to be and that God has directed my steps so that I can prosper here.

The other night the church I have been attending had a night or worship and I swear there was almost 3,000 people in the building. Some where old and most where college students there to worship and praise our risen King. Before going I had so many ideas of what I was going feel or what this service was going to be like and was filled with all different types of emotions. When the first song came on by David Crowder band “Oh How He Loves Us” I felt something I was not expecting. Usually at worship services before I felt an emptiness that I was trying to fill by being there. But this was different. I felt tears falling down my face and they were not tears of hurt or sadness but tears of joy and happiness. Then a song with the words My Healer, Redeemer, My God Almighty came on and for the first time in my life I have felt completely restored. I was usually the one at the service hobbled over feeling terrible about the person I was and broken for my past, but not tonight. I stood singing praises to my Savior and shouting at the top of my lungs that I am healed and redeemed! I have known all this time that I have been redeemed but to actually feel it with all of my soul and heart was overwhelming. I am here in my life with amazing family, friends, school, and church! Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would actually be living the life I have always dreamt for myself. My family is so proud of me and I am proud of me, but most importantly my God is proud of me. And yes I struggle with everyday life and things normal 23 year olds go through but I know at the end of the day my God has healed me by His stripes. I’m not going to lie there is one thing that is constantly on my heart and that is the people of Haiti and all my loved ones there. They have been recently hit with a hurricane and I wish more than anything I could be there with them. But I know that I am at the place where I am supposed to be…for now 🙂 and I am so grateful for that. My is God is not dead HE IS SURELY ALIVE and in ME! This place is real, my life is real and my Savior is so real. I am so blessed and so thankful to be here and to be basking in the presence of my sweet Lord.

Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits:

Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases,

Who redeems your life from destruction,

Who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies,

Who satisfies your mouth with good things,

So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

Psalm 103:2-5

My precious roommate and I on the Beach!

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"Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven. Matthew 5:16